30 June 2010 @ 07:35 pm
  • Had a Yankees dream last night. Jackie B and I were in NY watching them practice before a game. It was kind of bad ass. ♥ After DC I think the next trip I am planning is to NY. Even if it's after I move for my doctorate. Jackie and I HAVE to go to a yankees game together. It's now part of the commune rules. 
  • Some guys at work were randomly stretching their arms in the parking lot so the other intern and I started doing the sprinkler, running man, cabbage patch and the hammer dance to show them how it's really done. Like a boss.
  • I seriously just listened to the new Sparklehorse/Danger Mouse album Dark Night of the Soul (you can listen here for free on NPR) ALL DAY. ON A LOOP. I WAS SO HAPPY. It was ridiculous. 
  • Espn finally replayed the Spain/Portugal game. If only they would play the Slovakia/Netherlands game. If they don't it's ok. I found a place to download ALL the World Cup games. So I'll just watch that this weekend. This game was so tight. I can't believe anyone scored outside a shoot out. Just saying. 
  • Guessed 7/8 of the Round of Sixteen games right. Boo yah.
  • I also need to watch the last two episodes of Dr. Who but they keep playing baseball games I want to watch (Yankees! Giants!!!!) so I have to watch them.
  • I am almost done with Culture and Imperialism by Edward Said. I think I am going to read The Trial by Kafka next since I got back into my Kafka loop.
  • Getting knitting done.
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29 June 2010 @ 05:51 am
 I am pretty much over work. Not to sound like an ungrateful dick or anything, because I am VERY grateful to be able to work here 2/3 months out of the year and be able to pay my bills for the rest of it while I am in school, but my passion is history. Even when I want to punch myself in the head over stupid homework assignments or struggle with how much I dislike a class, I am at the time in my graduate career where it's time to kick things up and hardcore work on my thesis and I am so fucking excited that I seriously cannot contain myself.

And so I am sitting in an office. Scanning paperwork. With people who are perfectly content to just wait around to die. No dice. I need to LIVE. I need to live in the best terms I know, which is sports and history and being a foodie or whatever. It's not sitting in my cubicle complaining without doing anything about it and it sure the hell isn't acceptance. Yes. I need to work, but no this work is not my life. This work is a means to an end. It's a means to Russia and to DC this winter and a means to pay for my car. It is not something that defines me and it's making me antsy to just BE IN RUSSIA. Or JUST WORK ON MY THESIS. Or JUST BE IN MY FINAL SEMESTER OF CLASSES. Which is good because it means that I am a fighter and will do whatever it takes to achieve these things, but is terrible because I am like euuuuuuuuuuuugh about something I HAVE to do for another month and some change. So it's useless. 

Which is fine. I mean it's not particularly hard work, but it's boring and menial I want to go back to my shitty school sleep schedule. I want to read about shit I normally wouldn't care about because it's IMPORTANT to learn about the world. Even the parts that aren't appealing because they made the world for what it is.

In other words: Office cabin fever. 
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09 June 2010 @ 08:14 pm
 So I started work. Scanning papers, sitting at my desk, drinking water and col brew coffee out of my thermos, eating outside, tinkering with electronics. Etc.  Etc. My desk is in the corner and I share a cube with 3 people who don't talk to me. Haha. My life. 

THE BLACKHAWKS WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!! POST OVER!!!!! I just did a victory lap around my house and did a dance etc etc. CALLED THAT SHIT. I KNEW THEY WOULD WIN TONIGHT. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. dfjkdhfgkjdhfgkjdhgjkfdhgjkfghdkj 
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21 July 2009 @ 09:34 pm
Just realized that I haven't talked about the syrup coffee at my work. Coffee. Made of syrup. They pour the coffee flavored syrup into water and label it coffee. I don't think it's ever been made of something in the earth. Let alone a bean. A coffee bean. A delicious, caffeinated coffee bean of flavor and magic. No. It's made of syrup. Not that I am like a coffee connoisseur or anything. I don't seek out kopi luwak or anything, but I like my coffee to be made from actual coffee beans. Actually. Kona rocks. If you want to ply me with coffee, ply me with kona or double dutch chocolate. Coffee made of syrup is fucking gross.

Then they have powdered creamer. Which is also fucking weird. I use it at home occasionally, mmm irish cream, because I don't drink coffee that often at home because it tends to inflame my insomnia and then the creamer goes bad and it's a waste of money. But syrup coffee with powdered creamer? And what next? Splenda? Can you just serve us caffeine pills instead?

Next topic. I had planned on my tire exploding on the freeway and traumatizing me so I squirreled away 300 dollars in my head for tire things. And then my tire got a flat. Not an exploding flat, but a flat. It was after 12 hours of being awake and I was over it. Lame. Now I have two new tires and am not traumatized by anything except scanning papers for 9 hours a day and syrup coffee.
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23 June 2009 @ 10:36 pm
First off: I am working in an abandoned office building.

Second. My summer goals.

1. Learn to crochet- In progress. I think I made a headband. It's green.

2. Finish my embroidered bag by the end of June. *shifty eyes* I really need to do this.

3. Get drum lessons: Totally got a drum instructor today. \o/ YES. They are totally not a creeper either.

4. Take French: Which I would have done if there were any freaking classes available. So I am going to do those computer program lessons until I can take the class. Maybe winter session?

5. Finish up knitting projects I keep finding in the house: Working on it. I found a sweater I started so that may take a while.

6. Read more.

I think I had one more, but these are the ones forefront in my mind. DRUMSOMGFUCKYEAHMYSOUL. I need to take a shower and sleep.
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You probably know now that I quit my job. I just walked out. I couldn't deal with the harassment anymore. I personally feel like I was really taken advantage of and I never want to feel like that again. I let it go on for too long and it ended up a mess. I completely neglected myself and am now realizing the effects of this. I am an emotional mess. I hardly recognize myself anymore and I can never do that to myself ever again. This is one of the bravest things I think I have ever done. I shocked the hell out of myself and probably my boss. I really really don't care what any of them think about me anymore. I am done with that bullshit.

Now I am free to heal myself. I have to heal myself because in the end I am the one stuck with me and I can't be like this. I can't be scared anymore. I can't be a pleaser and I can't be intimidated like that. I can't be timid. This is my life and it's the only one I am going to have.
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12 March 2009 @ 03:10 pm
[Error: unknown template qotd]FML I hate my job. Welcome to fascist retail, you dumb bitch. I feel that's the sign that should welcome employees into the store.
14 February 2009 @ 09:06 pm
[Error: unknown template qotd]Probably a nature or urban photographer. Seriously. That or like working for NASA in the archives. True facts.
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28 January 2009 @ 09:58 pm
Ok. Remember in high school when everything seemed ridiculously hard? Like "oh my god I have a four page essay on this book due in two months!" or whatever. "I have to read this book in two weeks!" or like "I have math homework!" And now I am reading a book a week and writing like 20 page papers on top of 2 page papers due every other week and I am like "eh. that's easy."

Anyway. I started class tonight. I don't even know if I am going to like it. the professor was REALLY enthusiastic about everything and his making us read some of his work so I kind of was laughing hysterically on the inside.I don't even know. THIS IS GRAD SCHOOL!

I did get to quote Oppenheimer in class though. Jesus fuck you guys. "I am become death." I should not be the only one who remembers this. Half the class has to at least have seen the newest Indiana Jones movie, ok? OPPENHEIMER! Ok science nerd revealing time is over now.

Tomorrow I have to work from 8-5 then go to class at 6:30 and I have been a motherfucking bear waking up this week and then they inflict me on the masses. Hilarity! I get coffee though. I should probably start taking vitamins or something because I am like like death.I AM BECOME DEATH IN THE MORNING. hahsjkdsdjfhskdjhgsk

This post is retarded. I haven't done a real update in forever and you get to hear about this? I am so tired. I am like laughing hysterically at this post.
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17 October 2008 @ 09:32 pm
When I posted my rant what I meant to talk about was my once a week return to my old job. Good job, self.

Job ramblings )

Lauren's been not-so-secretly laughing at me because I am spending all day tomorrow at UCLA at a Central Asian History conference. I did my Senior Seminar in Central Asian history so I actually got interested in it despite the crappy books we had to read. I am going with Katie, who I actually became friends with because of that class, and the weird modern middle east class we ended up in with all those wackadoo white dudes who honest to god thought they were middle eastern and Islamic and shit and that chick who randomly brought her Iranian friend in to talk during her final presentation about Swedish writers who talk about Muslim men abusing their wives. If Katie wasn't in that class I would have seriously punched someone in the throat. ANYWAY. I have to get up at 7:20 to be at her house in order to get there at 9. The conference ends at 5. Shit. I need to find my ipod otherwise we are going to have to listen to Aladdin on the way to UCLA and then back again.

Afterwards, I am spending the night at Lauren's again so we can be retarded about Cobra Starship and Rock Band just like last week! Only instead of going to a Panic concert and then crashing at her house for two days I am going to a Central Asian conference and will stay one night. Or something.


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14 May 2008 @ 12:28 pm
I GOT THE INTERNSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
14 February 2008 @ 11:10 pm
Oh my god. I forgot to post this story.

So this one day I go into work and I walk over to blow my nose.

This 91 year old lady (literally) turns to me and says: "You're drunk aren't you? I know you and you're always drunk!" and she kept going off about how drunk I was.

I was like "Of course I am!"

Also: CHRISTIAN AND JILLIAN top three!!!!!!
09 September 2007 @ 11:57 pm
Man with child: I am not here of my own free will.

Me: Neither are we.

Someone else asked one of my coworkers if they put the security caps on the booze to stop the employees from drinking at work. When said coworker told me about it I was like "Duh. How else would we stay sober here?"
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Have you ever wondered if you were smarter than the average CVS customer? Well this is the quiz for you!
Super fun time quiz under here. )If you answered: Under the giant yellow sign that says greeting cards. Then you get to live another day. Add another point to your score.

Question Three: Should you interrupt the transaction I am in the middle of to ask for change/ask where a product is/ask me to do anything that doesn't involve the transaction I am in the middle of?

If you answered: No. Then not only are you not a complete moron, but you are not a rude and/or inconsiderate moron. Add another point to your score.

Question Four: Do I really care about your day/why you don't have your cvs card/about your life?

If you answered: No. Then you know that I have more interest in cleaning my bathroom than about how your dog died or whatever emo bullshit you are freaking out about. Add another point.

Question Five: Am I open?

If you answered: Yes because you are standing there by the register staring at me. Then I shall ring you up. Add a point.

OR: No, because you are standing nowhere near the register. Then you get to wait in line some more. Bitch! Add a point.

Question Six: Do I know jack shit about Pharmasuticals?

If you answered
: No. Then you will live because you are smart enough to not ask for my useless medical advice. I actually want you to die so don't ask me how to prolong your life. Add a point.

Question Seven: Do I work here?

If you answered: Yes because you are wearing the CVS shirt and have a nametag. Then I will assist you. Maybe. Add a point.

Question Eight: Am I on break?

If you answered: Yes because you are carrying a purse and food and playing the ukelele while juggling chainsaws on fire. Then you have more common sense than a garden hose. Add a point.

Question Nine: Can you use an expired coupon?

If you answered: No. Then congratulations! You know how to read. Pat yourself on the back and add a point.

Question Ten: Can I do anything about all the corporate bullshit that CVS pulls to try to fuck you out of as much money as possible?

If you answered: No. Then you obviously have prior experience with corporations/haven't been in a coma for 50 years. Add a point. Add a bonus point if you also realized that I don't give a shit that you got fucked by CVS.

If you got: 12 points. Congratulations you are smarter than the average cvs customer. I may consent to talk to you.

Less then 12 points. You must be an average CVS customer. I shall serve you with polite indifference until you leave and I can talk about how stupid you are with my coworkers.
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28 August 2006 @ 01:37 am
I just (an hour ago) got back from working the American Idol concert. Let's just say my hatred of mankind has been renewed... again.